Today Makes a Year

Today is the one year anniversary of my being on the official wait list. Woo flipping hoo. Can you feel the sincerity oozing out of me? As much as I was hoping to hear something in May, that's probably not going to happen. So perhaps June will be my month. June is a good month for a referral. You have Father's Day, My Birthday. Maybe June will be it for me. I guess we'll have to wait and see. And really, we all know how good I am at waiting!

Instead of complaining again I am going to make a list of things that make me happy.

1. My Punkin will come. It clearly won't be on my time line but he/she will come.
2. I got tickets to see Jason Mraz in August. So stinking excited for that. He's
my #2 musician obsession. I don't think anyone will surpass Bryan Adams as my
number 1.
3. My friend Brenda is due to give birth to her baby boy any time now. Can't wait
to meet him.
4. Fiber one oats and peanut butter bars. They're yummy.
5. My Ipod. I seriously don't know how I would get through the day without good
music to listen to.
6. My house is clean. Like top to bottom spring cleaned, curtains washed,
cupboards scrubbed cleaned.
7. I just joined Netflix which means that I will likely see more than 4 movies this
year.
8. The Twilight Series. Now granted, she's no Shakespeare or Steinbeck or Rowling
but good gravy she can create a vampire boy that this almost 38 year old is a
crushin on. If only she could make me a human, older version of him and send
him to my door. Oops, there I go with my unrealistic expectations
9. My niece Sarah is coming at the end of June for about 10 days. Can't wait!
10. That I have a new favorite show to look forward to for the fall. If you have
not seen the preview episode of "Glee" run, yes, I mean run like the wind to your
computer and find it on fox or YouTube. I seriously CAN NOT WAIT for this show.

Two posts in one week. Are you stunned, elated, flabbergasted? Don't get used to it. It's not likely to happen again.

Wishing Time Away

I'm over this waiting thing. Do you hear me adoption powers that be? I. AM. OVER. IT. I am tired of being a nercvous wreck from 9-5, Monday through Friday. I'm tired of jumping out of my skin every time the phone rings. I'm tired of waking up feeling optimistic and going to sleep feeling dissapointed. I am tired of not knowing when I will see the Punkins face for the first time. I'm tired of whining about being tired about not knowing when things will happen. I think I need a vacation from myself.

I have been trying to distract myself. I spent almost the entire long weekend spring cleaning my house. I read book 3 of the Twilight Series and started on book Four. I had lunch last week with my great friends Andrea and Rob who were visitng from Ohio. I had lunch with a couple of my favorite students and colleagues. I had a sleepover with my nephew Jacob. But nothing seems to work for very long. I have this ache in my heart and the longer I'm on the waitlist, the harder it hurts. It's hard to stay positive some days. This is one of those days. I know I will get through this and I know that all the heartache and time will feel like nothing once I know who my baby is. I just wish I knew when that would be. I hope to be more uplifting next post but for now I'm just pining, waiting for my punkin to come.