Back to Work

Tomorrow marks my return to work after an 11 week maternity leave. In many ways, it feels like going back to school. I packed up the things my sister will need at her house for Grace. I figured out what I'm going to wear tomorrow, I packed up my lunch and got the coffee maker set up for the morning. I collected my pictures of Grace to take to work and I set the alarm clock. Logistically, I'm ready. Emotionally.....not so much.

I realize that when it comes to the day care situation, I won the lottery. My sister Kate who is one of my very, very best friends in the world, is my day care provider. She will be Grace's godmother and her guardian, god forbid anything happens to me. Kate and her husband and I own our house together which means that the commute to day care is about 12 seconds up a flight of stairs. Grace will spend all day in an environment she is super comfortable in and thanks to a good baby monitor, she will even nap in her own bed. It really couldn't get any better. Grace loves her aunt and uncle and thinks her two cousins hung the moon. She will be fine. She probably won't even notice I've been gone until I come home. I however, am bordering on loony. I have been trying to prepare myself for this for a couple weeks and yet, I woke up this morning ready to cry. I know every mother goes through this. There are many before me who survived and lived to tell their tale. I will too. But it probably won't be tomorrow.

In closing, here are a few more recent pictures. Wish me luck tomorrow. I have a feeling I'm going to need it.